Friday 13th

Friday 13th...
is it a black firday?or freaky friday?lol...
but the only thing i knw is... i'm sick..\
pitty me =(

We are ONE

What a tired day for me today....
teaching...
jam on the road alone...
no music... no radio.... just heard me talking to myself...
one, two, three, four, five......

Went to look for my cousin.. coz she just arrived kl this evening... that's wonderful feeling when i saw her... coz i don't have any relative here... it's tough to be alone here without any family... when i saw my cousin... it's like a feeling that saying to myself ''Wow... this is my family....finally i can see them !!'' haha... quiet happy to have dinner with her and her friend... and she ordered a lot of food !! oh my goodness... we got japanese food, italian food, indian food and western food... LOL... just like we travel through japan, italy, india, and america... haha...

Today i realised one thing... that's no matter where we are... what we are doing... Family member is the closer person for us... coz we flow the same blood... and we're having the same parent, grandparent.... sometimes maybe they did do sth or say sth that hurt our feeling... but it's always fine in the next day... coz.. no matter how... we are still the one... OnE fAmILy that attached with us forever....

Appreciate?

Is it human will only appreciate something after they lost it? or they never realise that something was in their hand all this while? and they will only knw after something is gone....

I'm just received a msg from a special friend... or shud i said a msg from my ex.... i still remember... she is the one who asked me to stop bothering her last time... and gave me a thousand excuses.... i did ignore her msg just nw but guess what... she msg me again and said ''why u didn't reply me geh TT.... '' i admitted, i gt a little bit angry but suddenly i remembered God ask me to let go and forgive... so i replied her msg...

Well, she called me and chat with me around half an hour... her voice is still same... but my feeling is different... i really can't put myself into any relationship anymore... coz the only one i love is God... and i also don't dare to let myself being hurt by someone again... she told me that she really can't forget the touch and the things that i hd done for her.. bla bla bla... i really knw... i really knw that i did a lot of things and touch for her lastime... i used to waiting for her outside her school for 1 and half hour almost everyday... n bla bla bla... still remember it was her b'day that day... i went to fetch her like normal days... but suddenly... i lied to her that my car gt problem... then asked her to take some tools for me from my car boot while i'm pretending to check sth in front of my car... when she opened the boot... she saw a big card with a bouquet of flowers... it's a surprise for her from me... i feel that she was so touch of that... ok.. it was nt the end yet... the moment she got inside my car again... i was holding a heart shape's cake...and started to sing for her... tears came out from her eyes.. and i knw... this was love... this is the first time she got a surprise from a guy.. i really tot its meaningful for her... but.... ....

I started to learn how to let go...
Let go those who departed from our life...
Appreciate always come late...
But rash always come first...

Miracle...

Today... miracle happen.. kakaka.. my buddy.. Mr. Choong Kar Wai ask us for jog this morning.... me and David tot he just say for fun only... coz he ask us to go for gym as well last year.. but we never make it... but u guess what... Mr. Choong Kar Wai wake us up at 6am in the morning... MIRACLE..... Kar Wai and David come and fetch me at around 6.30am and we went to Bukit Jalil ''moutain'' to complete our mission....
RESULT= MISSION COMPLETED
Congratulation Mr. Choong Kar Wai and two stupid buddy.
Just nw watched Ninja Turtle with David, Hanah and friends... u knw what... i slept in the cinema... i only knw the starting and the ending... and four turtle keep jump here and there.... LOL...

Today is quiet a tired day.. especially for me and David... but we knw that's sth waiting for us in front...
So Gambathe !!!!

Let go....

Easter just past.... TT... my church was pack with thousand and thousand people... praise the Lord.. a very touch drama and show us how JESUS hd die for us were prepared by my lovely church... i was very touch.. the moment the Roman's soldier hit Jesus.... my heart was like ''why you guys hit my father... why? what he did? pls stop it... please.........'' i keep holding back my tears but it just keep flowing... i realise there's a very deep love between me and Him, Jesus.... i admit.. i really cannot lost Him.. coz He is the only one... and no body can replace...

After this easter.. i only realise who is my heart and what my heart really think... i really never think of the truth in my heart.. who is the one i love the most... who the one i miss the most, ir who is the one i care the most......? But after i watch the drama and started to pray to God when i'm alone... only i realised... only i got the answer in my heart.... only i knw... who is the one i really love, who is the one i really care, who is the one i really miss... and i started to accept the fact... the realistic... coz God told me... left ur past behind... i really did accept those who are really gone.... was gone... just like what my pastor said.. Life is like an airport.. people arrived, people departed.... our past will never come bck again... and it will nvr happen again in our life time.. so God told me.. why not u just put down everything and start everything from zero again?i knw it's tough but i wanna learn how to let go.....

Thank you God for teaching me how to let go, teaching me how to forgive... im knw im unique in the name of JESUS...

This is the word that i really wanna tell myself.... ''Let go my behind, and start a new life...''
say goodbye to our past and say hello to our future....

My Childhood......

Just finish my class.. but this time gt a bit different... coz i always the one who sit in the class and sleep, play. talk or 'sometime' will 'listen' to the teacher... but this time, im the one who standing in front and teach !! how lucky am i??? LOL.. recall back to when i was in primary school... running in the basketball court, love to stay back in my school for activities almost every afternoon... im still remember... im a red cresent member... lol... secondary school.... still behave like a good boy at first.... listen to teacher, drop all the notes that teachers gave... represent for some competition... but this atittude doesn't last long... im started to learn how to talk rubbish in class, skip class, give excuses to go out the class, ''answer'' teacher's question !! hehe... really fun for me and few of my 'gang', we never think of teacher's feeling while we scold back our teacher... coz we tot we really 'geng' !! i still remember my form 2 teacher's day.... we invited all the sesi petang teacher... but excluded our form teacher... LOL... this was hurt i think =( now.. i standing in front students.... just like i stand in front of 'before me' or 'future me'... some are gud... but gt some really wish i can slap them... LOL.. they did challenge me sometimes... lol... just standard 4?? wth ?? but some really respect me.. follow behind my back even i finish the class.... haha... maybe this is so called ''lap kasut'' my ex classmate used to say... lol... time really goes like flash... in a blink of an eyes, just like yesterday im the one who sit in the class as a student and today i stand infront the class as a teacher... being a student was fun... no worries.. no preasure.. the only things u hv to worry is just whether have u done ur homework or cut ur hair.... my kindergarden... my primary, my secondary... are far far left behind ... but i still miss... miss how early i wake up every morning... miss my uniform(i still keep it) hehe... miss sitting in the class and dreaming... but all this... really cannot happen to me again... it won't come back again... but just stay inside my heart... my memory... forever.....

If that was really love...

Everyone wants to find out
Who's the one love of their lives?
More so melancholy......
especially around midnight
Eyes dosed with heart unsettled
Because deep inside,
you know that was love.
If that was really love
Should have stayed before you turned away
Even with pain,
even with tears
The feelings remained after love was long gone
If that was really love
If I'd understood it when it happened
Would my life be any different?
Especially around midnight
When I think about the future
Can I be at peace with the present..
and ask myself what is love
If that was really love
Should have stayed before I turned away
Even with pain,
Even with tears...
Even with countless lonely nights
Love..why is it always clearer looking back?
Even with pain,
even with tears..
The feelings remained afterlove was long gone
Because such was love
Because such is love